In the first year of sobriety the 12 Step program which I attended handed out chips as markers of sober time during the first year. The program gives out chips at 1, 2, 3, 6 & 9 months. At 1 year there is a “Birthday” celebration where the birthday girl or boy’s sponsor and others who were active in their recovery say nice things about them and reflect upon the journey to date. These birthday celebrations continue each year but oh it’s often a long time between a celebration…
I can remember desperately looking forward to receiving my 1 month chip, this desire of mine to receive one kept me sober many a time during that first excruciating month. The same can be said for months 2 & 3 although less so for me. By the 6th month I realized I wasn’t waiting anymore, I wasn’t marking the days in the same way. I was beginning to become comfortable in my sobriety and was focusing upon building my spiritual foundation rather than counting time.
Don’t get me wrong time marking is a very important thing to me, as each day comes to a close I can be found thanking God for X days of sobriety. I am very aware of how close I came to losing myself to booze, because I realize the risk alcoholism is to me I will forever do my best to remain mindful and actively battle this disease.
Today I am 2.5 years sober!!!
There is no organized celebration and I had almost forgotten until driving in the car yesterday I was blaring to my Pink CD and her song Sober came on. This song was very important to me in my early sobriety. I had no idea of who I would be without alcohol in my life, it had become such an integral part of who I was and how I dealt with life. I remember searching around for famous people I admired who were sober and I took hope in Pink’s sobriety at the time.
Pink’s song Sober hits home on so many levels for me, back then I played it throughout the day to remind myself it was possible to be “cool” and not drink. Now I listen to it to remind myself of where I’ve been and where I don’t want to return to.
Today I thank God, my family & friends, my 12 Step program and yes I thank Pink for reminding this old bird it’s cool to be sober!
In true Julie style I am going to celebrate like a rock star! Ok so it will be in the fashion of an aging rock star but it’s a FABULOUS day to be grateful!