This week has been typical of any week which has followed a major event over the past few years…..a let down. I live with chronic pain issues and find that nowadays when I have a big event to attend (such as speaking or blog conference….or head shaving/ fundraiser) the week after finds me in bed.
This week is no different and to top off the exhaustion I’ve been hit with the stomach flu….thank you so much lowered immune system. Being out of commission has it’s benefits though, not only do I get to spend quality time snuggling in bed with my dog but I’ve had time to engage in some self-reflection.
Shaving my head has had a profound effect upon me, it’s given me a deep feeling of FREEDOM.
I didn’t quite expect this, I knew on an intellectual level that I’d be stripping myself of a barrier I’d become used to. What I mean is that my hair often spoke about me to strangers before I did. When you choose to sport a “funky” do like I did it leaves an impression….I don’t have that anymore.
Now when I’m walking down the aisle in the pharmacy and someone is looking at me it’s not because my awesome hair caught their eye…ok well it could be because I’m bald…..but I feel very exposed.
It’s like the left over facade is gone and I’ve been left with my true self.
This in itself is freeing.
I had thought that I’d covered these issues over the past 2 years or so but I’ve realized that my hair was a sort of a mask for me, one that I didn’t quite recognize.
Now that it’s gone I feel wonderful, relaxed and at ease…..stomach flu aside.
I’m embracing myself today and hope that you will too……I can clearly see who/what I am and am just simply being that.