Lately I’ve been all about fabulous drink recipes and delicious food here, this is a GREAT thing but I’ve felt like I was in a bit of a quiet period when it came to writing about my life. Almost as if I was waiting, surrounded by silence…comfortably so I might add. Today I read a post from my friend Sarah on UrbanMoms titled I’m Officially Old and it got me thinking about aging gracefully vs becoming decrepit.
Silence is golden as they say. My world is silent throughout the daytime hours; I sit with no TV on, no music, either blogging or reading or resting. Excess noise tends to lead to migraines and diverts my attention, so our home is silent throughout the day while the little ones are at school.
There is actually humour in this, when I think back to the music which pumped out of my teenage bedroom or the super-sized bass that echoed down the streets as I drove by it makes me ponder aging. I’ve officially hit the point of life which I said I never would!
I am now a white-haired woman, dressed in comfort-fit waistbands who prefers silence to the sound of blaring music to “stir my soul”. I believe I’m actually worse than my Mum was; I just cannot concentrate if there’s background noise and am often found to be pleading with my children to speak one at a time….sigh, if this is 40 what will 50 look like?
I Refuse To Be A Grouchy Old Woman
It’s a total pain in the rump to have noticed this. Now I’m resenting the fact that I’m behaving like my geriatric years are upon me and am intent on youthifying myself. Yes, I’m making that a word.
I’m not going out to buy myself any of the neon-trends as of yet but I have been turning my car stereo up a few notches, I may have put on makeup to go to the grocery store and yes I did actually turn on MuchMusic this week only to find it’s all horrible TV shows which I don’t think I would have ever watched.
Sigh…..ok these may seem like feeble attempts but hey, I gotta get my mojo back!
Aging Gracefully, Not Rotting
I’m making a pact with myself. To begin with I’m going to turn on some acoustic tracks I adore when I can (it’s a process folks, SlipKnot can wait). I’m going to apply makeup when I’m going into public and will actually wear a bra (this one will really please my kids!).
Today I’m taking back the sound of life and youthifying! I’ve decided that I’d prefer aging gracefully instead of drying up quietly.
Believe me when I say I’ll still be seeking my silent times, these are important to me. Intentional silence is where I find God and reconnect with my purpose.
We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature – trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence… We need silence to be able to touch souls. ~Mother Teresa
Even Mother Teresa knew Mama needs some silence in the day….but I won’t run from the noise of life anymore.
I’m going to do my best to embrace the summer months filled with kids chitter-chatter and dive into the noise of life in general. Within the noise I will live and hopefully stop myself from forgetting to enjoy it.
How about yourself, have you noticed changes as you age?